{"id":2228,"date":"2024-08-01T19:12:11","date_gmt":"2024-08-01T15:12:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ziya.info.az\/?p=2228"},"modified":"2024-08-19T15:46:10","modified_gmt":"2024-08-19T11:46:10","slug":"sevinc-eli-1990","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ziya.info.az\/?p=2228","title":{"rendered":"SEV\u0130NC \u018fL\u0130 (1990)"},"content":{"rendered":"

Q\u0259dirova Sevinc Mir Cabbar q\u0131z\u0131 – 1990-c\u0131 il oktyabr\u0131n 20-d\u0259 \u015eabran ra\u00adyo\u00ad\u00adnunda anadan olmu\u015fdur. H\u0259min ra\u00adyo\u00adnun Roman Yusifov ad\u0131na 2 sayl\u0131 or\u00adta m\u0259kt\u0259bind\u0259 11 illik orta t\u0259hsil al\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00add\u0131r. \u015eeir\u0259, \u0259d\u0259biyyata b\u00f6y\u00fck ma\u00adra\u00ad\u011f\u0131 3-c\u00fc si\u00adnif\u00add\u0259 oxuyar\u00adk\u0259n ki\u00ad\u00e7ik h\u0259cm\u00adli \u015feirl\u0259r yazmaqla ba\u015fla\u00adm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. O, m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 t\u0259hsil al\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 ill\u0259r\u00add\u0259n art\u0131q g\u00f6z\u0259l in\u015fa, m\u0259\u00adqal\u0259 yaz\u0131r, \u00f6z duy\u011fu v\u0259 d\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fcn\u00adc\u0259l\u0259rini asanl\u0131qla q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 al\u0131b ifa\u00add\u0259 ed\u0259 bilirdi.
\nSevinc xan\u0131m ail\u0259lidir. \u0130ki g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00f6vlad b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcr. M\u00fc\u00adt\u0259madi \u015feirl\u0259r yaz\u0131b \u00f6z daxili d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 misralara k\u00f6c\u00fcr\u00fcr. \u015eeirl\u0259rind\u0259 Sevinc \u018fli t\u0259x\u0259ll\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259n istifad\u0259 edir.Sevinc xan\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259\u00adv\u0259skar \u015fair\u0259 hesab edir. V\u0259 yarad\u0131c\u0131 fikirl\u0259rini ifad\u0259 ed\u0259n \u015feir\u00adl\u0259\u00adrini toparlay\u0131b \u015f\u0259xsi kitab\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259\u015fr etm\u0259k arzusun\u00addad\u0131r.
\nBiz d\u0259 bu g\u0259nc \u015fair\u0259 xan\u0131ma yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q u\u011furlar\u0131 arzu edir v\u0259 onun duy\u011fu d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan k\u00f6vr\u0259k s\u0259tirl\u0259ri oxucular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n diqq\u0259\u00adtin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131r\u0131q.
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YOLLAR AYIRIBDI…<\/p>\n

Yollar ay\u0131r\u0131bd\u0131 h\u0259yatda bizi,
\nU\u015faq idim, onda qorxum var idi.
\nH\u0259yat\u0131 c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m bilirdim d\u00fcz\u00fc,
\nOnda fikirl\u0259rim halbahal idi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat davam edir, \u00f6l\u00fcms\u0259 haqd\u0131r,
\nRastla\u015fa bil\u0259rdik, bir g\u00fcn hardasa.
\nM\u0259nim duy\u011fular\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm sayaqd\u0131r,
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259r, s\u0131zlayar unudularsa…<\/p>\n

Saf \u00fcr\u0259k, sad\u0259l\u00f6vh, avam fikirl\u0259r,
\nKa\u015f el\u0259 qalard\u0131 olduqlar\u0131t\u0259k.
\nM\u0259n qorxu san\u0131rd\u0131m e\u015fqi,sevdan\u0131,
\nO qorxu \u00e7\u0131xmazd\u0131 can\u0131mdan g\u0259r\u0259k.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yacan, s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259 t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f,
\nN\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l hiss imi\u015f.., m\u0259n bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\nHeyif, bu duy\u011fular olubdu ke\u00e7mi\u015f,
\nH\u0259r \u015feyi n\u0259 yaman ucuz g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

T\u0259krar ya\u015fanm\u0131r ki, ke\u00e7\u0259n duy\u011fular,
\nXatir\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259 qal\u0131r.
\nS\u0259n\u0259 tumar \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n k\u00f6vr\u0259k qay\u011f\u0131lar,
\nB\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 q\u0259lbini min d\u0259rd\u0259 sal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

NIGARANLI\u011eIM<\/p>\n

G\u0259lm\u0259, ist\u0259mir\u0259m m\u0259nl\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259,
\nH\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259nib arzu etmir\u0259m daha.
\nNarahat olurdum h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n,
\n\u0130ndi arxay\u0131nam, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr Allaha.<\/p>\n

D\u0259yi\u015fdi fikrimi, t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc,
\nBu g\u00fcn s\u0259nd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n sevinc x\u0259b\u0259ri.
\nBu g\u00fcn\u00fcn olacaq m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox xeyri,
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r gizl\u0259s\u0259m i\u00e7d\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259ri.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 sevinmi\u015f\u0259m, q\u0259lbd\u0259n, \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n,
\n\u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 bir m\u00fcjd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n.
\n\u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n, t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n,
\nQ\u00fcss\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259c\u0259k, geri tamam\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Sevincd\u0259n, k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n parlay\u0131b, durub,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rim bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn x\u0259trin\u0259 dolub.
\nBel\u0259c\u0259, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim m\u0259nim,
\nG\u00f6r, s\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r nigaran olub.<\/p>\n

Daha qalmayacaq g\u00f6zl\u0259r arxada,
\nH\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259c\u0259k sakit q\u0131n\u0131na.
\nM\u0259nd\u0259 bu ill\u0259rin nigaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131,
\nS\u0259nd\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikl\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131 sonuna.
\nV\u018fRD\u0130\u015e ETM\u0130\u015e\u018fM<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm yuxunun, g\u00fcl\u00fcm,
\nT\u0259sirin ba\u015f\u0131mdan atan deyil\u0259m.
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn m\u0259niml\u0259 dola\u015f\u0131b g\u0259zdin,
\nH\u0259yatda bu ana \u00e7atan deyil\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim ba\u015f tutmayan, \u0259l\u00e7atmaz arzum,
\nNec\u0259 var yuxuda kam\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131.
\nBu \u00fcmidsiz yuxum, \u00e7ar\u0259siz yuxum,
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 lal kimi yatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fr\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmir ki, yuxun g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n,
\n\u0130st\u0259diyin zaman qonaq g\u0259lirs\u0259n.
\nH\u0259yatt\u0259k g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m, h\u0259r yuxunu m\u0259n,
\nEl\u0259 bil, ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259n soraq verirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fqa bir d\u00fcnyaya al\u0131b g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr,
\nBa\u015f\u0131mdan yuxunun t\u0259siri getmir.
\nBu gec\u0259 yuxuma g\u0259li\u015fin deyil,
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u0259 verdiyin, \u0259zab\u0131n bitmir.<\/p>\n

G\u0259lm\u0259, nec\u0259 deyim, g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259n olmur..
\nS\u0259nli yuxularda kama yetmi\u015f\u0259m.
\nS\u0259n dem\u0259 m\u0259n s\u0259ni h\u0259yatdan da \u00e7ox,
\nR\u00f6yada g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259rdi\u015f etmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

B\u00d6Y\u00dcK SEVG\u0130 OLUR…<\/p>\n

B\u00f6y\u00fck sevgi olur sevib qovu\u015fmaq,
\nQibt\u0259 edir s\u0259n\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn sev\u0259nl\u0259r.
\nOcaq qurulsa da sevgi \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259,
\nDaim xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmur,sevib-sevil\u0259nl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u0130lk ba\u015fdan duy\u011fuyla ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n,
\nSonda xo\u015f arzular, x\u0259yallar olur.
\nS\u0259n qurub, yarad\u0131b, bitirdiyin an,
\nRuhun \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, can\u0131n, yorulur.<\/p>\n

K\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131na g\u00fccl\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015far,
\nS\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q olmu\u015f bir \u00fcr\u0259k.
\nQorumaq \u00e7\u0259tindi t\u0259miz hisl\u0259ri,
\nSonad\u0259k saxlay\u0131b he\u00e7 itirm\u0259m\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Qurban ver\u0259-ver\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rsan hey..,
\nBu g\u00fcn do\u011fmalar\u00e7\u00fcn, sabah yad \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr \u00e7\u0131xmaz ax\u0131, sevgisiz ba\u015fa,
\nKimi aldad\u0131rsan, bir yax\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn…<\/p>\n

N\u00fcmun\u0259 olsan da \u00fczd\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259,
\nSev\u0259n b\u0259db\u0259xt olur s\u0259nin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259.
\nB\u0259z\u0259n el\u0259sini xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n,
\nQibt\u0259 el\u0259yirs\u0259n buna \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259.<\/p>\n

EL\u018f \u0130ST\u018fY\u0130R\u018fM…<\/p>\n

El\u0259 ist\u0259yir\u0259m, s\u0259ninl\u0259 bir g\u00fcn,
\nA\u015fkarda \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lim, sar\u0131laq.
\nT\u0259nha bir yer olsun, h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n uzaq,
\nBax\u0131m g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259, g\u00fcl\u00fcm, sar\u0131laq.<\/p>\n

Yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qalandan bizim xatir\u0259,
\nQ\u0259lbim\u0259 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q suallar dolub.
\nO ke\u00e7\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n, \u00f6t\u0259n ill\u0259rd\u0259n,
\nFikrimd\u0259 n\u0259 varsa, qaranl\u0131q qal\u0131b.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 arzular\u0131m var ki..,s\u0259ninl\u0259,
\n\u018fmin\u0259m, ham\u0131s\u0131 bir vaxta s\u0131\u011far.
\nS\u0259birl\u0259, \u00fcmidl\u0259 m\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m,
\nQorxuram bu f\u00fcrs\u0259t \u0259limd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar.<\/p>\n

Dal\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin d\u0259rinliyin\u0259,
\nBir d\u0259f\u0259 doyunca baxacam s\u0259n\u0259.
\nYax\u015f\u0131 h\u0259kk ed\u0259c\u0259m s\u0259ni beynim\u0259,
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, \u00f6l\u00fcnc\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259dim yen\u0259.<\/p>\n

Daha yorulmu\u015fam, ist\u0259mir\u0259m m\u0259n,
\nH\u0259r g\u00fcn yuxularda \u00fcz- \u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259m.
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcn birc\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015fayaq s\u0259nl\u0259,
\nBiraz y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fsin bu h\u0259sr\u0259t \u015f\u0259l\u0259m.<\/p>\n

ALLAH…<\/p>\n

Allah, n\u0259 ist\u0259dim, h\u0259r \u015feyi verdin,
\n\u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n naraz\u0131, s\u0259nd\u0259n raz\u0131yam.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fctox, sad\u0259l\u00f6vh, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u00fc insan,
\nM\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259n yaradan, yazan yaz\u0131yam.<\/p>\n

Bir par\u00e7a \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259, \u0259zizl\u0259riml\u0259,
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xti bildim.
\nOnlar\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, g\u00f6r\u00fcb
\nD\u00fcnyan\u0131n mal\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n sildim.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 arxay\u0131nam h\u0259yatda s\u0259n\u0259,
\nHe\u00e7 kim\u0259 bu c\u00fcr\u0259 \u00fcmid olmaram.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n ist\u0259yiml\u0259 m\u0259n ,
\n\u00c7ar\u0259siz, \u00fcmidsiz he\u00e7 vaxt qalmaram.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr \u0130lahi,
\nCan\u0131m\u0131n yand\u0131\u011f\u0131n nec\u0259 bilirs\u0259n..?
\nM\u0259n\u0259 qan udduran, \u00fcr\u0259k yaxana,
\nC\u0259zan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r\u0131n se\u00e7\u0259 bilirs\u0259n..!<\/p>\n

S\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcb tan\u0131ya bilirs\u0259n dey\u0259,
\nN\u0259z\u0259rin ayr\u0131lm\u0131r san\u0131ram m\u0259nd\u0259n.
\nEl\u0259 hiss edir\u0259m h\u0259r duamda m\u0259n,
\n“\u0130lahi d\u0259y\u0259ri” al\u0131ram s\u0259nd\u0259n!<\/p>\n

SEVG\u0130 B\u0130R SUAL\u2026<\/p>\n

Baxanda “s\u0259feh\u0259” ox\u015fay\u0131ramsa,
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, yolunda durmay\u0131m daha.
\nS\u0259n d\u0259 utan\u0131rsan, m\u0259n d\u0259 hardasa,
\nUcuz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m olsam da baha.<\/p>\n

Z\u0259r nahaq d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yib z\u0259rg\u0259r \u0259lin\u0259,
\nBir toz qondurmazd\u0131, o g\u00fcl \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259.
\nBu m\u0259nim \u0259limd\u0259 olmad\u0131 bel\u0259..,
\nQism\u0259tim yaz\u0131ld\u0131, d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm b\u0259xtin\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259l ehtimallar bel\u0259 deyildi,
\nG\u00f6r, indi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259lbi yanan var…
\nS\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 naraz\u0131 bax\u0131\u015f,
\nM\u0259nim g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmd\u0259 \u015firin yalan var.<\/p>\n

K\u00fcs\u00fcb-bar\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131n n\u0259dir ki xeyri?
\n\u00c7\u0259ki\u015fib-b\u0259rki\u015fm\u0259k olmur k\u00f6m\u0259yin.
\nKimin \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 n\u0259 gizlisi var,
\nH\u0259r\u0259 bir t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir \u0259t\u0259yin.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck, n\u0259 ki\u00e7ik… s\u00f6z\u00fc ke\u00e7\u0259n var,
\nSon s\u00f6z \u00fcr\u0259yindi… sevgi bir sual.
\nDaha bu e\u015fq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcmid g\u00f6zl\u0259yib,
\nBiz adl\u0131 arzudan qurar\u0131q x\u0259yal.<\/p>\n

\u00dcM\u0130D<\/p>\n

\u015e\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259r yaran\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 ki..,
\nY\u0259qin m\u0259n\u0259 aid, m\u0259xsus deyils\u0259n…
\n\u00dcmidim t\u00fck\u0259nib, anlay\u0131ram ki..,
\nAx\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259sir, m\u0259hbus deyils\u0259n…<\/p>\n

Z\u00fclm\u0259td\u0259n uzanan bir i\u015f\u0131q kimi,
\nB\u0259s… m\u0259nim \u00fcmidl\u0259r \u0259lac\u0131m idi…
\nH\u0259qiqi m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t \u00fcmidsiz bel\u0259,
\nH\u0259yata t\u0259s\u0259llim,r\u0259vac\u0131m idi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim s\u0259nsiz \u00f6td\u00fc, ke\u00e7di ill\u0259rim,
\nS\u00fcrm\u0259dim, h\u0259yatda xo\u015f bir \u00f6m\u00fcr, g\u00fcn.
\nS\u0259n\u0259 olan sevgim artsa da, g\u00fcl\u00fcm,
\nDo\u011fan \u00fcmidl\u0259rim itdi g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

Daha s\u0259nsizliyin t\u0259m\u0259lin at\u0131b,
\nQ\u0131r\u0131m bo\u015f, m\u0259nas\u0131z \u00fcmidin belin.
\nYarada bil\u0259r\u0259m, bacarsam… ancaq,
\n\u00dcmidsiz sevginin b\u00fcst\u00fcn, heyk\u0259lin.<\/p>\n

K\u00f6nl\u00fcmd\u0259 ya\u015fayan xatir\u0259l\u0259rin,
\n\u0130ziyl\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m \u00f6m\u00fcr boyunca.
\nM\u0259n sevgi ya\u015fad\u0131m, h\u0259sr\u0259t ya\u015fad\u0131m,
\nS\u0259nin sevgin il\u0259 s\u0259nsiz doyunca.<\/p>\n

N\u018f OXUMU\u015eAM..?<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 n\u0259 oxumu\u015fam..,
\nHam\u0131s\u0131 sin\u0259m\u0259, q\u0259lbim\u0259 dolub.
\nSonuncu bax\u0131\u015f\u0131 unutmam\u0131\u015fam,
\n\u018fn a\u011f\u0131r z\u0259rb\u0259ni vuran o, olub.<\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259r sonra s\u0259nin bu son bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n,
\nB\u0259s idi,bir \u00f6m\u00fcr b\u0259sim olacaq.
\nE\u015fqind\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu d\u0259rin m\u0259na,
\nA\u011fl\u0131ma batmayan hissim olacaq.<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00f6z\u00fcn, bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n yadigar kimi ,
\nS\u0259nd\u0259n xatir\u0259sin o\u011furlayacam.
\nYa\u015fad\u0131b, g\u0259zdirib, fikirl\u0259rimd\u0259,
\nA\u00e7\u0131b m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 do\u011frulayacam.<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 n\u0259 oxumu\u015fam..,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259r ancaq q\u0259lbin aynas\u0131 deyil.
\nFikir, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r, duy\u011fular q\u0259d\u0259r,
\nOnlar hisl\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 say\u0131l\u0131r d\u0259lil.
\nDAHA…<\/p>\n

F\u0259l\u0259k dayand\u0131rd\u0131 q\u0259sdi-q\u0259r\u0259zi
\nDaha axtarm\u0131ram \u00e7\u0131raqla s\u0259ni.
\n\u018flimin i\u00e7ind\u0259, ovucumdasan
\nVaxt\u0131nad tapmad\u0131 “taleyin” m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

M\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 bildiyim, n\u0259l\u0259r- n\u0259l\u0259r\u0259
\nOlmu\u015fdu m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259brin t\u0259s\u0259lli.
\nQap\u0131m ba\u011fl\u0131 idi, yollar\u0131m ba\u011fl\u0131
\n\u00dcmid apar\u0131rd\u0131 i\u015f\u0131\u011fa m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 qovu\u015fma\u011fa can artd\u0131qca m\u0259n,
\nN\u0259 idi gen tutan b\u0259s, s\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259n?
\n\u0130ndi qocalm\u0131\u015fam, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb sa\u00e7a d\u0259n,
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t yorub m\u0259ni, soyudub s\u0259nd\u0259n.<\/p>\n

D\u0259rid\u0259n-qab\u0131qdan s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131b, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b,
\nN\u0259l\u0259ri ya\u015fad\u0131m bu yer\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r…
\n\u018flimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 ovucumdasan
\nBirc\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259r!<\/p>\n

S\u00d6Z\u00dcMD\u018fN \u00c7IXMI\u015eAM…<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam q\u0259sd\u0259n, bil\u0259r\u0259k.
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getmi\u015f\u0259m \u00e7ox ist\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k.
\nArxamca n\u0259 deyib, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan?
\nS\u0259n m\u0259cbur etmis\u0259n, g\u00f6zl\u0259 bir g\u00f6r\u0259k…<\/p>\n

Uzaqdan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz, \u0259t\u0259rsiz m\u0259nd\u0259n,
\nNiy\u0259 inciyirs\u0259n, bilib-bilm\u0259d\u0259n?
\n\u00dcmidsiz sevginin quca\u011f\u0131nda m\u0259n,
\nIll\u0259r itirmi\u015f\u0259m geri d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259n…<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcn, ya da bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n,
\nM\u0259nim hisl\u0259riml\u0259 eyni deyildir.
\nA\u011f\u0131lla, \u00fcr\u0259yin yolu bir olar,
\nO da m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259xsus… yeni deyildir.
\n\u00d6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, ke\u00e7irib vaxt\u0131, v\u0259d\u0259ni,
\nQar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131san.., n\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?
\nM\u0259n dikib g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc baxa bilmir\u0259m,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim yol vermir, n\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirs\u0259n..?<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 bel\u0259 k\u0259sm\u0259zdi a\u011f\u0131l\u0131n m\u0259ni,
\nAmma bir yol se\u00e7ib, ya\u015famal\u0131yd\u0131m.
\nS\u00f6z verdim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 deyil ki..,
\nDurmu\u015fam s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259.<\/p>\n

BA\u015eIM M\u018fH\u018fBB\u018fTD\u018fN
\nN\u018fL\u018fR \u00c7\u018fKM\u018fD\u0130…<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131m m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259td\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d..,
\nBu \u015firin k\u0259lm\u0259nin ac\u0131s\u0131ylayam.
\nSevgid\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259m d\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n dad\u0131n,
\nAld\u0131\u011f\u0131m yaralar a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131ylayam.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u00e7ox ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam h\u0259sr\u0259tin hay\u0131n,
\nH\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 qovu\u015fmaq duas\u0131ndayam.
\nSevgid\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tdir, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, pay\u0131m,
\nM\u0259ns\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 havas\u0131ndayam.<\/p>\n

M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t adlanan bu duy\u011fular\u0131m,
\nVaxts\u0131z g\u0259tiribdir h\u0259r \u015fey ba\u015f\u0131ma.
\n\u00c7\u0259tin y\u00fcks\u0259li\u015fin, q\u0259fil eni\u015fin,
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 izl\u0259ri g\u0259lmir xo\u015fuma.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 \u0259zab\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdim sevginin,
\nS\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcm bo\u015f \u00fcmid, x\u0259yal dal\u0131nca.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi, saf m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti,
\nG\u0259zdi sev\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6m\u00fcr boyunca.<\/p>\n

K\u00f6n\u00fcl \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n \u0259zab h\u0259m \u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n,
\nRuhum da inciyib, m\u0259n d\u0259 k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.
\nBir ki\u00e7ik k\u00f6z\u0259rti b\u0259s edir m\u0259n\u0259,
\nH\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259td\u0259n \u0259l \u00fczm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\nH\u018fR \u015eEY \u00d6Z\u00dcM\u018f BA\u011eI\u015eLAYIRAM<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u00f6z xatir\u0259md\u0259 s\u0259ni qorudum,
\nReal h\u0259yat\u0131ma otuzdurmad\u0131m.
\nO “s\u0259n” ba\u015fqa idi, bu “s\u0259n” ba\u015fqad\u0131r,
\nBu “s\u0259n”i q\u0259lbim\u0259 yat\u0131zd\u0131rmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

B\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259hvimin d\u0259, s\u0259hvl\u0259rimin d\u0259,
\nS\u0259b\u0259bi s\u0259n oldun, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 etmir\u0259m…
\nLayiq olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m,arzulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m,
\nH\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 yerl\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259ldik, \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131q s\u0259ninl\u0259,
\n\u0130ndi yolumuzu ha\u00e7alam\u0131\u015f\u0131q.
\nDavayla, d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259, s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t il\u0259
\n\u0130kimiz d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k par\u00e7alam\u0131\u015f\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi yanl\u0131\u015flar\u0131 qar\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram,
\nSevgini h\u0259r zaman alq\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram!
\nOdun \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259, k\u00fcl\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259,
\nH\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram..!<\/p>\n

GETD\u0130M…<\/p>\n

Getdim, ill\u0259r sonra o yerl\u0259r\u0259 ki,
\nXatir\u0259l\u0259r dolu kitab yazd\u0131r\u0131r.
\nBaxd\u0131m ba\u015fdan-ba\u015fa b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259trafa,
\nBu n\u0259dir.., bu yerl\u0259r a\u011f\u0131l azd\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r ke\u00e7irib
\nQald\u0131m d\u00fcn\u0259n il\u0259 bu g\u00fcn sora\u011fda.
\nH\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdim, v\u00fcsal g\u0259zirdim
\nQ\u0259ribs\u0259dim s\u0259nsiz,t\u0259k ortal\u0131\u011fda.<\/p>\n

Bir c\u0131\u011f\u0131r salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131n onu axtar\u0131b
\nA\u011flad\u0131m o q\u0259d\u0259r… torpa\u011fa baxd\u0131m.
\nG\u0259zdirib g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc o yan, bu yana,
\nBurda ayaq d\u00f6y\u0259n izl\u0259ri tapd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

X\u0259b\u0259rin var bizi birlikd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n
\nBuran\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck sakini \u00f6l\u00fcb.
\n\u018fn ki\u00e7ik aya\u011fa-\u0259l\u0259 dola\u015fan
\nG\u0259lib biz\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131b, liyev b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb!<\/p>\n

N\u0259 ged\u0259 bilir\u0259m, n\u0259d\u0259 ki,qala,
\nEvim olmal\u0131d\u0131 bu yax\u0131nlarda
\nU\u015faql\u0131q, cavanl\u0131q saray(\u0131)ma gedim
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m m\u0259n ancaq orda.<\/p>\n

M\u018fN\u0130 D\u00dc\u015e\u00dcNM\u018f…<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259 ki, \u0259zaba dalma,
\nYad\u0131na salma ki, p\u0259ri\u015fan olma.
\nN\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6r\u0259 -g\u00f6r\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131q bel\u0259,
\nUnut olanlar\u0131 yolundan qalma.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259 olub, ya s\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00fcnah,
\nF\u0259rq etm\u0259z yarada, qura bilm\u0259dik.
\nDaha fikir etm\u0259, \u00e7\u0259km\u0259 q\u0259mli ah,
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t tell\u0259rini q\u0131ra bilm\u0259dik.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259z\u0259bi i\u00e7ind\u0259 bo\u011f, \u00fcz\u0259 vurma,
\nGet toya-bayrama, kefind\u0259n qalma,
\n\u00dcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259ldikd\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259siz durma,
\nBiz e\u015fq d\u0259ryas\u0131nda co\u015fa bilm\u0259dik.<\/p>\n

B\u0259xtdi, da\u015fdan-da\u015fa n\u0259 \u00e7ox d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,
\nNahaq yer\u0259 yas\u0131n tutub a\u011flama.
\n\u0130lk e\u015fqin \u0259zab\u0131 ruhun did\u0259c\u0259k,
\n\u00c7al\u0131\u015f ki, bu d\u0259rdi gizli saxlama.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259 ki, \u0259zaba dalma
\nQ\u0259lbin\u0259 nifr\u0259td\u0259n s\u0259n, l\u0259k\u0259 salma,
\nDost kimi \u00f6l\u00fc bil, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin sanma,
\nBiz e\u015fq zirv\u0259sini a\u015fa bilm\u0259dik.
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